I'm sick of feeling this hole on my chest that grow day by day.
I'm tired of missing you and can't talk when I/we need.
I'm sad for myself because I can't live without you, I'm just surviving and you are fine and living the dream.
I'm ashamed for all the days that I ended crying because I'm not strong enough.
I fear for myself because I'm trying my best, but you can't imagine how deeply broken I am.
I hate this distance, I hate this feelings of time wasted and the bad feels about myself and can't deal with that.

I'm so sad, I want you here by side!